open me slowly
a sibling painting to acting peculiarly. painted around the same time. also named after a song.
also came into being as i began expanding creatively. when the idea of taking visual art seriously started forming.
the song is ‘open me slowly’ by rena jones.
i always thought that this song would be in the playlist for my first ever exhibition. that didn’t happen because my first exhibition was at a place resembling a nightclub where music was already playing and wasn’t picked out by me. some other exhibition then.
i rarely settle on a painting on the first session. but with this artwork that was indeed the case and i considered it my favorite for many years. it went from blank canvas to a complete painting probably within an hour and i never changed a thing about it. this is one of those trance paintings that were brought to being purely by the muses, and i was nothing more than a channel.
the combination of primary colors spiling out, the trembling shapes, the unfinished outlines, the watercolor pastels, the text repeating almost like a fervent whisper. yes, this is a eulogy to ‘open me slowly’.
aside from being aesthetically pleasing to my eye, let me share what it represents to me.
i see myself here, but i hope you can find yourself in it too.
despite being the first painting on this canvas, there are many layers to it. it’s as if ‘open me slowly’ can’t truly decide what shape to take, what color to settle on. there’s many layers to us. open yourself, and you might not stop your soul from spilling. this is heart, spilling outward. because if you go inwards, you’d be surprised how you’re a universe and not just a person. there’s always more to find.